Choose Love

This is the beginning of the new era. Many are saying that we are finally in the birth canal heading toward the great shift in human consciousness, and that it will be born on December 22, 2012. The Mayan Calendar ends on December 21, 2012. But I’m telling you as a woman who has birthed a child, by the time that child is in the birth canal, you know s/he’s present. There still may be a few more pushes, and the pain is excruciating, but there is no doubt that s/he’s a vital and living being. And that is what I feel we are experiencing right now.

But we must not fear the pain, we must embrace it the way the birthing mother embraces the pain, because she knows that it will end, and there will be a new life on the other side of the pain.

Everything right now seems to be out of whack. Nothing seems the same. Nothing is. We are living at the end of an era which will never return. We can choose to live in fear of what the future will bring, or we can choose to live in Love and Light. We are being asked to leap with faith into the NEW without having the foggiest idea of what the NEW is.

But if we choose Love, the power of our conscious choice for Love can only create more Love. And so as we choose Love we are throwing a lifeline created from Love out in front of us to hold onto as we move forward with the power of Love into a future of our choice, which can only be Love.
If we are in fear, and allow the fear to be our strongest motivator, then there is no lifeline to hold onto.

Yes, I know it’s scary. I know many people are in dire financial straits. Relationships are falling apart, sickness and loss are part of so many people’s lives. And the recent Tsunami in Japan is horrific, as well as the wars and uprisings around the world. But in the midst of all of this are signs of spring, of new life, of new found courage and strength, and people coming together to help one another. Loving one another is the answer, no matter what our differences.

We must stop hating right now! It is imperative. There is no more time for hate. Hate is just a byproduct of fear. When you choose Love over fear, hate melts away.

Forgiveness is imperative now. Forgiveness comes from the very center of LOVE. Forgiveness comes from compassion. Compassion comes from opening our hearts to our brothers and sisters all over this world. Take some time to think about someone that you have strong disagreement with, or someone you feel hate or anger towards, and then do a little meditation in which you imagine walking in their shoes. Then allow your heart to open to understanding , and voila! Compassion!

This is difficult, of course, but it is imperative now. I hear you saying, YES, BUT! Yes, but he hurt me so much. Yes, but she is so selfish. Yes, but he stole my money. Yes, but they blew up the World Trade Center. They created an illegal war. They bankrupted the country.

All of those YES, BUTS are rational. Hating is rational. Loving is irrational. It is a time for great irrationality. Has the world become a better place by hating each other, killing each other? Has one war ever brought lasting peace? Has hating one person ever made your life better?

It’s time. It’s time to Love no matter what. Love - not sappy greeting card love - Love that comes from the center of the Divine universe and channeled through you.

Love powers the entire universe. Choose it, and I promise  you will never regret it.

We must have some way to connect with the great Love of the Divine, and what has been incredibly powerful for me is to meditate daily with the White Light to help strip away the fear, anxiety, and stress that cause us to be out of the flow of Love. So, I’ve begun making White Light Meditation Videos to share with you.

This week’s meditation video is focused on helping release fear, anxiety and stress specifically. It is called appropriately enough 
 
White Light Meditation – Releasing Fear and Anxiety

Click her to view the Video Meditation

  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I1eKHSjoGE8

Remember that you are a Divine child of this Divine Universe. You have the power to choose Love and Light. You can create a lifeline of Love to throw out ahead of you each day. You are a Great Being of Light.
I Love you.
With hugs of Light,
Barbara

Open Your Heart to the Power of the Light

Tonight we are moving into an amazing weekend, the Full Moon and the Spring Equinox. It is also an extremely powerful time because of the great shift in human consciousness. Instead of writing about it, I've made a video about it. Please click on the link to view the video.
Wishing a joyous and powerful Spring Equinox.

Barbara

FINDING THE LOVE IN THE CHAOS

This is the dawning of the Age of Aquarius. It truly is. It may seem like everything is falling to pieces. And yes, it is. But in the center of the chaos is the burgeoning new world consciousness. This is the time we have been waiting for, dreaming of. We are finally, actually crossing over the threshold into the new era - the era of Goodwill, Joy, and Abundance for all. The demonstrations in the streets will succeed – are succeeding. The collective human consciousness is lifting into a higher vibration – the vibration of universal LOVE. Love with all those capital letters. Not romantic love, but the love that created the universe and drives it constantly. The love that includes All. All people. All living beings. All planets. All stars. We are part of this oneness, and we have reached a moment in our evolutionary progress that allows us to expand into the vast Love, and experience it in our own small, but not insignificant lives.
The collective consciousness of humanity has been vibrating at the frequency of fear for a very long time. With the higher vibration of love shaking the old fear based culture to its core and causing what seems like chaos, it is easy to cling more desperately to the old fear based cultural norm. But it won’t help. It will only make the fear grow stronger. And by resisting the natural shift up into the higher vibration of Love, Goodwill, Joy, and Abundance for ALL – by clinging to the belief that things must be put back the way they were – will cause nothing but unhappiness, depression, and in the most extreme cases mental breakdown.
The antidote for this is to surrender to Love. And surrender to the ride of a lifetime. Or more correctly, lifetimes. There has never been a time like this before. So, trusting that all will shift up into the high frequency of Love is almost impossible to believe. Because to believe it, we must let go of what past experience has taught us, and find a place deep in our hearts that knows that this is the truth.
It’s not easy to write this; because I also have past experience that tells me that it can’t be happening. That I can't let go of the wounds that have driven my life up to this point in time. But I am guided to write this by a deep inner knowing that comes from a place outside of normal life experience. And that is where we all must go to connect to the beauty of this shift up into the new vibration of love.
The way to connect to this vibration of love is to meditate daily, so that you can begin to experience the vibration of love and not fear.
I recommend doing a meditation that includes infusing yourself with the LIGHT. The Light is the carrier of Divine intelligence that emanates from the Divine LOVE. Therefore, by infusing yourself with the LIGHT, you are infusing yourself with the Divine LOVE, and at the same time being taught by the LIGHT how to become the LOVE. You are naturally a Being of Light. It is through meditating with the light that you become more and more aware of it.
I have recorded a video that is now on YouTube in which I guide a WHITE LIGHT MEDITATION that you can incorporate into your daily life to help you surf the giant waves of this chaotic and exciting time and become more and more at peace with the shift. Here is the link. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p0wcmzlTkik

I wish for you, that you may have an open heart to be able to receive the goodness that is pouring forth from our Divine Universe, and discover your own magnificent inner LIGHT and LOVE.

Today is my birthday. So, of course I am celebrating the joyousness of another year on this wonderful planet. Because I am so happy to be celebrating my birthday, I mentioned the fact in an email to my publisher Sarah Portsmouth at Cygnus Books in the UK. She wrote back and told me that today was her brother's birthday also, and she shared the following letter that her brother wrote to his friends and family just before his birthday, 2/17/2002. I wanted to share it with all of you.


To all family and friends: Hi everyone.

As you know, I will shortly be reaching an important milestone in life, my 50th birthday. I expect many of you have been wondering what on earth to do, what to buy me, what I could want, what you could afford, etc. etc. Well, worry no more. I know the feeling. The fact is, I really don’t need anything else but there’s one thing you could do for me that would be much better than any gift, and make the world a little bit better in the process.

All I ask is that you do something for someone who needs a little help, something to cheer someone up a bit, something, large or small, to make the world just a little bit brighter on my special day. It doesn’t have to be a grand gesture. Just invite the old lady next door round for a cup of tea, drop a few coins in a collecting tin or send back that Oxfam envelope with the free pen. If you’re only little then try to be as good as you can all day.

Help Mum. Tidy your room. All I ask is that you think of something to make life easier for someone, to bring a little bit of happiness into their life, then go do it, whatever it is, large or small. Use your imagination.

The most important thing is, whatever you do, don’t tell anyone, most of all me. I don’t want to know. I have all the happiness I could ever fit into life. Let’s share it.

There’s one more thing, though. If you decide to do something for someone on my special day, and at Christmas, please send me a card. Write whatever you want, but so that I know you did something for someone somewhere, just put two little words at the end. Just write ‘I remembered’. That’s all. If every birthday and every Christmas I get a card like that from each of you and nothing else, and I stress I want nothing else, then that is the best present I could ever get, to think that on my special day this little idea of mine is making the world just a little bit better for those less fortunate than myself, simply because you are celebrating me. I don’t have to do anything. All I need to do is sit and watch those cards come in, knowing that each one, because of me, is making the world that little bit brighter.

What better present could I want? There isn’t one. Who knows, it might catch on. We need a name for it. How about ‘Birthday Aid’?

Malcolm

Malcolm Robertson passed away on 02/10/2006, aged 54 years. I would love you to spread his message as far and wide as possible. If you wish, you could send your 'I remembered' cards to me at Cygnus, but I think he will know, wherever he is, without any cards.

With love,
Sarah Portsmouth
Cygnus Books

Feeling Safe In A Shifting World

As we step into this powerful year of change, 2011, we are being asked to go to the depths of our being to ferret out all that stands in the way of our brilliant and shining true selves. Because 2011 is the end that prepares us for the new beginning in 2012, we are being asked to let go of old belief systems that we have held personally for our entire lives, and collectively for thousands of years. I know that many of you are aware of this and are making great headway. I know I am. But when we let go of the old, even the old that has been our greatest enemy, there is still a twinge of fear, like the rug is being pulled out from under us. The old ways kept us believing we were safe, though of course we weren't. Our true safety comes from our connection to love, and nothing more or less. And when I say love you know that I am talking about the Great Love that generates and powers the universe - or is the universe. But that Great Love is a little difficult to cuddle up with.

Personally, I have never in my life felt safe. I was sexually molested by my father from infancy. My mother, who lost her mother to scarlet fever when she was five years old and was then sent into foster care, lost her boyfriend in a car accident at 21, and lost her first child at three years old, when she was 25, never felt safe. Her fear that I would die kept me from feeling safe with her as well. Her pain of loss and her fear of not ever being safe translated into incredible anger which she focused on me. I had no grandmothers or aunts or older sisters, or anyone in my childhood who created a safe place for me. I have managed to connect with the Divine throughout my life, which has been my saving grace. I started going to church by my own choice and walking the six blocks all alone when I was four years old. But as much as God or Goddess or the Divine Universe is perfect love, it is not a place to snuggle.

My connection to this divinity in the universe and within myself has been what has protected me, supported me and fueled my work throughout my life, and I would have it no other way. But on New Years Day, 2011, I received a miracle. A miracle that is so sweet that the taste of it is salty like tears of joy.

As I was doing my morning meditation, my mother's mother, who has been dead since 1920, appeared to me, not as a vision so much as her actual self coming through the veils from the other side. I am quite sure that Einstein is correct and that time is simultaneous. So, with that in mind, it was like we were simply connecting without the veil of linear time separating us. ... And then she spoke to me. She said, "I'm so glad to see you my granddaughter. I have wanted to be with your for a very long time."

Having said that she cuddled me on her lap, and I felt like I was a little girl again, being held in the arms of my loving grandma. We laughed and talked together for a long time. Her name is Nellie McCarthy, and she was born in New York City in Harlem, which was the Irish ghetto at the time she was born in the 1880s. She was one of those strong Irish women who worked and remained single long into her twenties, because she didn't want to marry a man who would drink up her hard-earned money and then treat her badly. When she was 29 or 30 years old she had enough money to take a vacation. She was daring and bold, and took a train, all alone, from New York to California. And it was in a little town in northern California that she met my grandfather at a party that she was invited to by strangers. Ah hah. Here was where I got my daring, my courage. My Grandfather was a Scotsman, strong, solid and dependable, and very handsome. Nellie McCarthy went home to New York, packed her bags and moved to California to become Mrs. Francis Murch. Together they homesteaded 20,000 acres in Siskiyou County, the home of Mt. Shasta, the coldest wildest part of California, and began a family.

I remember my mother telling me how much her mother missed the opera. She and her father went to the opera together in New York and sat in the five cent seats at the very top of the highest balcony. She brought a wind-up Victrola with her to her wild new home and played her opera recordings. My mother remembered her love for Enrico Caruso, the Italian tenor. My mother also recalled that the pioneer life was very hard on her and that she often longed for her city home.

Now, on the first day of 2011, Nellie McCarthy was holding me in her ample lap, telling me that I would always be safe. She told the little girl, Barbara, who had been shunned by the mean girls at school, that she was wonderful and that she didn't have to worry about what those mean girls did, because her grandma loved her. That was, I realized, all I ever needed. Just a grandma. A loving, caring grandma, and now, by a miracle of time, I had her here in my bedroom. And she told me she was here for good. No more feeling unsafe, I had a grandma to give me the succor and safety that I never had before.

It felt and continues to feel remarkably real and absolutely lovely. You who have or have had loving grandmothers can understand what this feeling of being loved by a grandma is. It's like nothing else. There is a strength that is at once gentle and powerful, encompassing me in its sheath of unconditional and unencumbered love.

As we snuggled together many things that I had wondered about all my life became startling clear. I was born into a rather bland middle class Republican family in Sacramento, California. But from the time I was eight years old, when I discovered there was a New York City, I longed to go there and even announced to my parents that there had been a mistake, and we should be living in New York. They just smiled at me indulgently, but I knew they were shaking their heads about their very weird child. When my mother was angry with me, which was often, she would say, "All I prayed for was a normal child and I got you!" Luckily for her my brother came along, who was relatively normal. But even though she didn't get me, she eventually bought me a subscription to the New Yorker Magazine.

I was crazy for the New York theatre and read up on all the new shows opening on Broadway. I had a map of Manhattan on my bedroom wall. Yes, I was a teeny bit precocious, which my mother was at the same time proud and ashamed about. Now, as I sat with my Grandma, who longed to be back in New York while homesteading in the bitter cold wilderness, I realized that I held her yearning in my cellular consciousness. Wow! One puzzle solved. And all the rest of my New York stuff throughout my life started to fall into place. For instance people from New York always think I am a New Yorker. I always figured it was because I look or seem kind of Jewish, but no, it is because I am my Grandma's granddaughter. I am a New Yorker in my hereditary soul. Three times I have moved to NYC, and three times the city has spit me out and sent me back to the west. Just a couple of years ago I was apartment hunting on Craigslist in Manhattan, when circumstances moved me to New Mexico instead. A far cry from NYC. Then this morning I remembered being in New York in 1982 with my boyfriend, a lifelong resident of Manhattan. We were in the Village when suddenly I began to cry and couldn't stop. I thought it was because I never fulfilled my dream of being an actress on Broadway, (I did make it to Off-Broadway in 1970, but never Broadway) but the crying came from a deeper place, a greater loss. And now I know it was my Grandma crying through me for her lost home.

As I write this my grandma is sitting across from me knitting, and listening to me tell our story to you. And she is smiling a smile of love and pride that warms my heart. I just want to thank the universe for being so magnificent to allow my grandma to come to me through the layers of time and teach me what it's like to really truly feel loved and safe. Now, I can do anything in this unsafe, changing world. I can feel the love of the great universe now more powerfully than ever before, because it is being expressed through the human heart of a real person, my grandma.

The Economy of Love vs. The Economy of Fear

It's Sunday morning in Santa Fe, New Mexico. The mercury is hovering somewhere around 28 degrees Fahrenheit, and the sun is shining brilliantly. As I was doing my meditation, I was struck by the underlying fear that seems to permeate everything in the media these days. This is not a new condition in the world, but because of our technology we are connected 24/7 to the fear mongers and the harbingers of doom. There are many brave voices also that speak about hope and a new era approaching. But so often they are the softer voices with much less media coverage. Even Oprah, whom I admire greatly, highlights fear on her shows at times.

The biggest fear that seems to consume most of the media and most of the population, is the fear around the financial situation, because the great economies (translate - the rich countries) of the world seem to be going broke. Why they are going broke is based on fear, corruption, and greed. What if there really is a simple answer to how we can transform the economic crisis? What if all we have to do is to stop being afraid? What if the answer is within each and every one of us, and not dependent on any looming institution?

Greed and corruption can only exist where fear is present. When people - not corporations, but people, for every institution on Earth is run by people - are afraid they will lose what they have, they tend to close their fists around what they do have and then invest most of their time and energy on keeping what they have and finding ways to get more.

The fear that we will die if we don't have enough is omnipresent as long as fear is the most prevalent emotion. But there are people who live quite simply and comfortably in the midst of this fear-storm. Who are they? Are they the very rich? Though that would seem to be the case, it isn't necessarily so for all the wealthy, because many of the wealthiest are the very people who created the corruption and the destruction of the economy. And they did it, and do it, because they fear losing what they have - money and power. So, their fear has led to greed and corruption. But what about the rest of the human population? Are we just poor simple pawns in the hands of the multi-national coporations, which are led by powerful greedy people? I don't think so.

I think we are all powerful beings who have individual power and collective power that can, and I truly believe will, transform this greedy culture into a culture of abundance for all. But we won't do it by trying to help restore the "halcyon days of the 80s and 90s," because that was not a true abundant culture. That was a greed and corruption based culture, where the rich got richer and the poor got poorer. One sixth of the world's population, that is one billion people, live on less that $1 a day, and another billion live on less than $2 a day.

The transformation will come, and is coming, as one by one we stop listening to the fear mongers and become the harbingers of a new way. A way based on love and abundance for all. And to do this we must stop feeling like we are helpless victims of the powers of greed and corruption, and tune into the magnificent truth of the universe. And that truth is that Love is the power that overcomes fear, and thus greed and corruption, and that as each of us, one person and one moment at a time, steps out of fear and slips into the great stream of Love that powers the entire universe, we are free to be abundant. We are all free to live in the flow of love and joy and true prosperity. It is a choice. Yes, a hard choice to make when fear is the loudest voice in the crowd, and the illusion is that you will lose everything.

And yes, it is always possible that you may lose everything, but if you own your own soul, if you stop thinking that you have no power over the evil beast and go instead on the quest for your own magnificent hero within your soul, you will not be the victim of the beast any longer. You will be the hero of your life and have all that you need.
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And here's a little thought. What if you didn't give a damn if you were in debt? What if that fear didn't consume so much of your energy?
More on that next time.
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In the meantime, remember that there is always someone in the world who has less than you have. Reach out and give one of those people a hand and feel the love that surges between you both. That is where the power is - in the surges of love, not the cringes of fear.

11:11

As I tuned in this morning and connected energetically with all the people around the planet who are co-visioning a new world - a world based on love and caring for one another - I was struck by the enormous power we have in the simplicity of our intentions. I began to think about what I hold onto in my life that is contrary to a world based on love and caring. And some of those things, most of them, are masked in what I have in the past considered love and caring. I realized that the way I love my son, which is profoundly, is hindered by old patterns that we created when he, who is now 45, was 4 years old. It was that year that I split up with his father. And I felt so guilty for taking his father away from him that patterns of resentment and guilt were set up, not only in my consciousness, but also in his. And from that moment on, as much as we loved each other, these old patterns continued to inform all of our communication, no matter how much we have tried to overcome them. Both my son and I are lifelong meditators and lightworkers, and yet, we continue to hold onto the blame, resentment, and guilt because these patterns are so old that we, or at least I, couldn't see them clearly. It was if I were seeing them through "a glass darkly," or like shadows, buried in a kind of sentimentality that pretends to be true emotion. So, for my part today, on 11:11 when a million or more people around the world are linking our hearts and minds and spirits to create, through our intentions, a healthy new world, I make it my intention to let go of all resentment, blame and guilt I have in my personal relationships and replace those old patterns with pure love. Love that is not conditional. Love that is not sentimental. Love that has no expectations. No agenda. Just love.